Over the weekend I got to think about a lot of things and 'being ashamed' kept on jumping on me like a wild rabid cat, it there is one.

I wrote the same question on facebook and I got a lot of questions about what I meant about not understanding the meaning of  the word "ashamed."
           What I'm saying is I know the definition and the dictionary meaning of the word but it's not enough for me, here I'm redefining it. I'm talking about what it means to me.
This is not a preach it's just what has been in my mind for quite some time and I think it's time that I conclude it if I'm ever gonna do my Varsity work.

Psalm 31:1-3 " In thee oh Lord do I put my trust, let me never be ashamed, deliver me in thy righteousness..."

The thing is I've been ashamed of quite a few things in my life, going around thinking that I'm not worthy in the eyes of God when I should have been trusting Him. I've been a coward and timid and too proud to admit it. Because of this I've made a lot of mistakes, big mistakes, which all could have been avoided if I just had faith that maybe, just maybe, God really is Love like we say He is. Jesus is proof of that love. Going around carrying guilt and feeling ashamed is of no help to me or anyone. No one one should ever feel like they're worth nothing because to God we are worth so much more because of Jesus. But I guess the real question is; how am I supposed to let God use me to spread His love throughout the world if I first deny it to myself?

What a weekend.